I'm sorry, but I'm glad.

It took me so long to realize that my parents were right...it will take me even longer to get over this deep rooted feeling of regret. I love them so much, and I know I never want to hurt them again...I have no control over what the future holds, however I will keep praying that I never make the same mistakes as I have made this past while. I will also always thank God (my true father) for the parents he has graciously bestowed upon me. I will ask him to help me realize daily that just because they didn't come packaged and with a bow they are a gift, and they are a priveledge not to be taken for granted. I can't believe what I have done this past summer...despite my teaching and upcoming, I had no idea that I could fall so far. I could never fathom...I can't believe...I feel aweful that I was capable of such destruction...but I plan to try to make it up to them and thank them for all they've done for me inspite of me. There aren't enough words to express the regret I feel and how grateful I am to them. I hope I can try my best to let them know my deepest sorrows, and gratitudes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hXbjktiBwI&feature=related
This song is so beautiful. It's been an inspiration for something I should have done. I just wish it hadn't taken me so long.